Im keeping my head up as much as i can. In my mind it doesnt make sense and when im alone, thats when my thoughts start coming. the "why me's?" and stuff like that. but when im with people they sometimes ask questions and i like that. it makes me feel like people actually do care. and sometimes i dont know all the answers but no one does right?
i have been focused alot on photography lately. its a new passion and hobby for me. it helps distract my mind and helps me focus on the beautiful things in life. My boyfriend, joe and i went to a cider mill yesterday and walked this beautiful trail that follows a river. it was so pretty and i got lots of awesome pictures (i will post them later.) after lots of convinceing joe gave in and let me eat a donut it was way yummy! and it really didnt spike my BS at all.
i have realized that somedays its harder then others. somedays i wake up in tears and others i fall asleep with them. sometimes i can push the needle right in others i gotta talk myself into actually doing it. but i always know i have alot of people here to support me and help me through this crazy journey (including my wonderful boyfriend) and once again i want to thank each and everyone of them. i dont know how i would do this without you! (and i know i may get repetitive by saying that but i dont know how else to show everyone i appreciate everything they do for me)
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