Lately i have been trying to act like this isnt real. Im living like i was before i found out i have diabetes. The only reason i can think of why i am doing this is...everytime i think of the truth it scares me. i still havent processed the thought of me having this serious disease.
I have been doing the best i can. I eat everything i should, i walk quite alot, and i never ever cheat. because seeing people and reading the stuff i have researched i never want that to be me. I test my blood sugar all the time and i even log EVERY time i test it.
I feel like my BS is constantly low! like my pancreas is producing lots of insulin. the only time it spikes is if i eat more carbs then i should and i barely ever do that. i hate going low. i feel weak and dizzy and extremely shakey then when i drink orange juice to lift it back up to normal i feel exhausted. like my body worked so hard to raise the level back up to where it should be.
Today my blood sugar dropped the lowest it has ever been, 43. i almost couldnt even walk to go get orange juice. i felt super weak and my hands kept shaking. i have noticed a trend tho...everyday after lunch my BS drops. i have been waiting for my doc to tell me that i can drop my insulin dosage down during lunch but no word yet. my dosage has changed a little bit and its going down so thats good news. they say i might be able to go on the pill eventually but for now its constant shots...4 times a day!
I have been taking photos of different things...id say after my diagnosis my outlook on life has changed. i think things are prettier and taste better and i want to capture all these different things and display them. i will post some of the pics tonight.
Tomorrow i am going to an orchard to pick a pumpkin with my boyfriend of 3 years. cant wait i love that fall is here. im just dreading the winter.
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