So if you don't know, they have never told me whether i was type one or two yet. i have been patiently waiting for two (long) months to find out. after leaving the hospital i had come to find out that the endo who had seen me in the hospital did not pass his boards (at least that's what my GP says) and he did not recommend i go see him ever again. so obviously i took his advice and he referred me two this other one near my house. i got an appointment that was a month in a half away from when i had originally got diagnosed.
Finally the day came, as i explained in one of my previous posts she didn't really have much to tell me. she looked at the blood work from the hospital and said there had been conflicting numbers, some said i have type one and others showed type two. so she requested i go get my blood drawn one more time and then see her back in two weeks.
The two weeks passed by slowly. i kept thinking about how nice it would be to be type two and possibly go on a pill and just control it with diet and exercise. And then i was also thinking type one (ugh i have to keep all these damn needles.) so when that morning came i was sitting at work kinda nervous, and part excited i couldn't wait till 1pm just to get out of work. i called my aunt and had asked her to come with me cause i didn't want to be alone to find out this news. (hopefully good news) so here we go, sitting in the room, waiting for her to come in, my heart is racing, (i don't know why the crazy anticipation) but i was ready to know the truth. well she looked over my blood work labs and TYPE ONE it is. however she did say for right now i am type 1.5. but she said that will go away and i will be type one for the rest of my life. so then she suggested the pump the pens the.....everything i had hoped for went away in one second. i guess no pill only needles and pumps and pens and all that stuff (for the rest of my life) the rest of the day went so slow, i kinda wanted to curl up in a ball and die right then. i guess i should never get my hopes up for anything ever again. lesson learned!!
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